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this is the last time i'm posting here for awhile I swear! But I just thought I'd share this...
I absolutely LOVE this movie... but then again it has my ex boyfriend's nickname in it along 
with his two brothers names in it. I was having a FIELD DAY after I learned the names of the characters...
D: GAY GUYS ARE AWESOME!

 
Nico is the one dressed in green and purple, Jared is I think the naked one and the other one comes later in the movie.
 Let me know if this way to inappropiate >>...
Have you ever had sex with 'JUST' a 'FRIEND'?

I mean... I always thought if you have sex with a friend, it'd ruin the relationship between the friends...

and like your emotionally unstable, I mean you can't handle suddenly seeing a person you were just friends with all the sudden just backslap you?

I mean I've been told so many things...

and I really need to know.

I need help...

I'll get to introductions and talk about how I knew this guy later...

But all I'm going to say now is I'm Aya, 19 and in Florida. My ex boyfriend's name is Nick D,
why am I saying that? because he's pretty well known online, I've known him for 8 years... 
and I've had enough... with him... I met him in person in March. 
Yes I flew up to see him (omg so dangeroooous) it wasn't really, he was REALLY sweet the first day
then at night he didn't 'take my virginity' so he was a bastard most of the time I was there.
When I came back, he was claiming he 'never really loved me' and all he wanted was my virginity. 
But when he went back to Lousiana, he got back into contact with me and blamed the 'being mean' on his brother.
So what did I do? I fell into the trap. He said he 'still loved me' but at that time he said he was in love with a '16' year old and mind you he's 22 years old. The 16 year old even messaged me on myspace...

Well NOW let me get to the point what i'm saying now. Even when he said he 'was' dating her, he went after me. Asking me to take pictures in my cellphone to send to him. Yes inapproapiate pictures... 
but then when I refused... 
he'd do the guilt trip on me...
Like some of these examples:

"If you don't do it then I'll kill myself "
"If you don't do it then that means you don't love me"
there's alot more...

but now he's threatening me that, if I don't 'take another one'
then he's going to post it up on myspace...

I don't want to get the law enforcement, i'm just to afraid...

Somebody help me...

please...

Advice Needed

Alright... allow me to introduce myself; then I shall explain my situation and maybe just maybe someone can give me some insight.

INTRODUCTION: My name is Rikki; I am nineteen years old and have just completed High School... I have had many ups and downs in relationships (Mostly down) yet I somehow managed to keep coming back for more. I love to write and I love hockey. My other livejournal name, which is updated regularly is bunnyx14. This journal name is my old journal and used strictly for communities....

SITUATION: This goes back a few years ago when my friend Nicole began dating a cute guy named Orry. Nicole had many boyfriends in the past and was quite often a user and oppurtunist. Nicole was also Orry's first girlfriend. (They were 17 & 19 at the time... I believe) Well, we all believed our crazy Nicole would change. This was not too be. Orry was a saint and did everything he could to leave her pleased and at one point was Nicole's personal driver. Driving her to and from work, school, her friends... you name it, he drove her and only ever asked for her love in return. Well, while on his way to work in early April, his old car broke down, blowing the transmission. (FUN).... Now, Nicole had no way to get anywhere the easy way so what does she do? She breaks up with Orry and is making out with a guy the very next day. (They dated for a year and two months and she supposedly loved him very much - bullshit) Now, I knew this was what was going on and that this was the reason they broke up because with her being my friend, she told me. She point blank said, "What good is he now without his car?" A week after breaking up with him on the 17th she began dating her next victim Ronald. Orry naturally retaliated, being broken hearted with some extreme actions and words... which we all have done; however he pretty much dissapeared after that. I had met Orry a few times back in May/June of 2005 while playing for my schools baseball team and he would obviously bring her. During this time he had long hair and a gotee. A couple weeks ago, I met this guy... tall, thin with short blonde hair and blue eyes. He was simply gorgeous and its safe to say I was captivated from the very second I laid eyes on him. Thanks to the German flag on my bag, we began to talk and I discovered that this very cute guy was German like me. We continued to talk, I discovered his name was Orry.. however, Nicole's ex-boyfriend's name totally skipped my mind. Besides, there was no way this guy standing before me in black dress pants and a red dress shirt was Nicoles ex... or was there??

After talking for sometime we came to the realization that we reconized one another from somewhere before. He asked me what school I went too, I told him and this is when we realized that this was my friend Nicole's ex Orry... the one she dumped because his car broke down. Small world? I'd say so. Usually I would follow that cardinal rule of not dating a friends ex but by this time it was far too late. I wanted him.... and I got him. On Tuesday June 20th, with the help of my friend Vickie, Orry and I began our time together as a couple and naturally things seemed alright. Then on Sunday, Orry was invited to Vickie's to hang with us. Orry and I got lost in a deep discussion and realized that he isn't 100% over Nicole and as a result we broke up. However, before this, while talking he said something rather shocking; "It's weird. No one has ever showed me affection or care like you are right now." and I told him to get used to it, that I was going to care for him regardless. I also have never been able to read anyone yet I could see everything he was feeling and feel what he was feeling with a simple glance. He's hurting. What Nicole did to him, being 6K in debt because of his car and a ring he bought her for their anniversary, which she distroyed, and continuious pressure from his family... he needed his space. At this time I informed him that I would always be there for him when ever he needed me and that I would call him everyday just to check in on him and make sure he's okay. This confused him because no one has ever thought enough to do such a thing. Sure enough, last night I called him and I expected a ten minute conversation as a max however, we ended up talking for three and a half hours. We talked about everything but what was bothering him... anytime I tried he would somehow convert the conversation after disscusing it brefily and saying he was feeling better. A way I keep my eye on him is through an online profile he has. It originally said: I am in pain and I can't move on.; Now it says:
Im Still in pain, but now im Angry, im Ashamed of myself for letting Some one take advantage of my feelings, i will not be played like a Puppet! 

Also, in our disscussion last night he stated that he needed the two weeks he has in between jobs is time he needs to just have time to himself then try to re-build his life after the two week mark. The night we broke up (Sunday) I told him I was going to wait for him and that I wanted to be with him and I would show him the care and affection Nicole always failed too. He asked me why I would even bother (we were in the car at this point; he drove me to my grandmothers from my friends; which I argued with him about. He naturally one... I was simply too tired and just upset) and I just looked at him, sighed and said: Thats what people do when they care about someone. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and left. I cried for the matority of the night because I do have serious feelings about him and all I want to do is show him I care. When I first called him I he sounded suprised to hear my voice on the other line. Back to the conversation though, we weren't just talking and joking around. We were making plans. Like going to my cottage for a weekend and the things we'd do up there; going to concerts; going to this alternative club in Downtown Toronto and even accompaning me to a formal dinner party for my dads company. It was like it was before we broke up. It's like nothing had changed. I admit I was having my doubts waiting for him but now I know I am making the right choice. Agree or disagree? 

What I am asking is, what do you personally make of the situation and what would you if you were in this mess? Please, any help would be appreciated... 

Orange deuce?

Orang juice in wochovia will like this when you get more for your money. Pooncakes are good also. Dave, dave!!! Where are what are you doing, wireless bitch! This is the big one, because music makes the world look good that you have to know. at .com and the first to shovel to your room good. Super market suprise! Wow, it's a super all ready have them *music* domino MOFO!!! You play anything for ciggarettes in the joint ya know, I know I did. How the IRS got you. Damn that must of sucked a big huge game of diminoes I love the 20's it was such a great era. Do you know the number UNO? There's nothing coming out. Money Shot!!!!! WTF????Intuition and luck. Damnit...

SHE'S ON FIRE!!!
I have this friend who, we've just been friends for the time I've known him, but I've had feelings for him, and he knows of these feelings. A few weeks ago he started making out with me while we were at his apartment, after we discussed my feelings for him and under what circumstances I perform sexual acts with someone. We had a fight earlier in our friendship after I asked him out, he told me he didn't have any interest in me. We eventually made up though and somehow 3 months later we're making out in his apartment. On several occassions afterward he tried having sex with me. I never gave in because he never told me what his intentions were. He works grave shift at a gas station so the only time I ever really see him is when he's working. So I came in earlier tonight and there was a girl there with him. I figured they were just chilling because most of his friends are girls. After a warm greeting he ignored me for 20 minutes while talking to this girl. I didn't get his attention until I told him I was leaving. He's telling her this story about him from high school and she says 'oh, I'm dating a streaker'. So yeah. From a guy who constantly glorifies himself, saying that he doesn't do friends with benefits, no promiscus sex, blah blah blah. And he took advantage of me.
This is the second time he's hurt me, although this incident was much more severe than the first. I was wondering if anyone had any ideas at all of ways I could somehow set him up and get back at him???
boys.. ick. The only boy I can trust and/or relate or talk to is my best friend. I'm thankful for him. I used to like him.. a lot. But then I changed my mind because he's dating my best girl friend. Boys are confusing, especially to me. I'm yet to understand anything about them. But I have come to the conclusion that most of them don't take anything as seriously as girls do.

Aug. 27th, 2005

For every guy I loved, they just had to fall for someone else.
4 times. Over, and over, and over, and over again.
Sometimes I wished that I didn't have to feel the need to love someone, but it's so strong that it's eating itself out, inside of myself.
I wonder why they're handwired that way.
And perhaps it's just down to the fact, that I care too much and am too naive.
They're just so frickin' evil.